Today

Today I saw a rainbow.
Raw beauty of nature,
Distinct evidence of life,
Reminders of happiness

Today I hear people say
"There's nothing to see in Singapore"
"There's nothing to look forward in life"
"I can't do anything about the situation now"

Today I watched the sun set
Pure greetings from heaven
Basking glory from the cosmos
A usual sight,
But one still not fully appreciated.

Today I see people walking
Walking aimlessly
Walking unconsciously
Some so busy that they can't even walk at all

Today I heard the birds cry
Perfect symphonies of tranquility
Emblems of freedom and hope
Wonderful creations of life

Today I thought to myself

People are truly seeking happiness
People are truly seeking acceptance
People are truly seeking meaning

But why, then

Do they ignore the simple signs of life
Do they accept the cruel face of society
Do they conform to the shape society deems as "Perfect"

If people refuse to even look at the smallest things we have

Then what else can we look at?

So what if it has been discovered
So what if it is always there
So what if it will wait for you

When you don't stop to smell the roses
Sooner or later you'll forget the scent of it

When you don't even try to change
When you don't even try to think positive
When you don't even try to appreciate

How then, can you find happiness?

Today I saw an executive on the way home
She was busy talking on her phone
Busy arguing and planning with her colleagues
Busy trying to clench deals and make profit

Today I saw an old man at the void deck
He was just staring at the sunset
Watching the mothers feed their children
Staring at cars flashing by

But on his face played a smile

And there I think he found happiness

And there I think I found mine

WTFmoment

Alright.
One step closer to sanity, three steps back from reality

I got a weird jive this morning, prolly because I woke up earlier just to go for the band performance thing.
By the way, if any of you noticed about our performance, we sucked badly. Playing a hymn. In chapel.

Anyway, got back to class, felt the sudden rush of sadistic energy, thus was able to stay awake in bio, and actually show some signs of being enthu.

Then I got this weird high from drinking my tei bing.

Which resulted in me "ice skating" on the classroom floor.
Which resulted in Mr Lim scolding me.
Which resulted in him trying it out too.

Right.

Got another high at band.
I actually practiced some parts.
Then went all dizzy and oxygen-deprived
And then went dizzy again from inhaling too much.

Came back and listened to The Extreme 3 times in a row
Then listened to The Cupcake Song

It's a screwed up world, my life is.

That's why I love it

Oh Sweet Suicide.



Happy days!

Catalyst

Flowless life
Sorrowful laughter
Frenzied hastes

Catalyst

Destructive power
Dominion's wrath
Principality against trust

Reactant

Energy released
Hammer of thunder
Songs of fury

Resultant

Thundering earth
Splitting sky
Blood raining from the sky

He smiled

He always smiled

Yet this time was different
This time, he could smell the scent

Sweet scent

Yes, today would be a good day

Catalysts, Reactants, and Resultants

Hear his call

March forth the valley
Take down every wall

Open every heart

Dawn a new world
And set a new order

I Hate Myself

Failed everything

Fell beyond expectations

F***ed everything up

Feel so depressed

Failed band, failed school, failed life, failed religion, failed trust, failed promise

I failed everything

I Hate Myself

Let us run around the little garden

People are stupid

People eat things

Things are not stupid

So stupidity overpowers non-stupid things

-Relation to SMT life-

1)"Zomg! There's a huge creep there!"
"DON'T AGGRO THE THING"
-party wiped out-

2)"Zomg! Enemy team only has 4 people left!"
" Wait they have reinforcements!"
-monster spawns, repeat 1-

3)"Zomg! Item on the floor"
"Goddammit not again"
-monster spawns, repeat 1-

4)"Zomg! Dungeon so noob!"
-monster spawns, repeat 1-

5)"Zomg! I'll try talking to the giant creep!"
" They can't be negotiated with!"
- monster spawns, repeat 1-

6)"Let us run around the little garden!"
"Don't! You'll aggro the monsters!"
-monster spawns, repeat 1-

Gosh, playing Online Games with idiots is just....
Too much to handle

Next time you try training a stupid Singaporean

Think again.

19 deaths in 30 minutes, if that's not a record,
I don't want to know what is.

Luckily it was no death penalty day.
...Zzzz

...

I really, really hate Valentine's Day

I dunno why

Today just made me feel tired, band prac and all

Couldn't go out, couldn't socialize , couldn't go to church... etc

At least Darren Tay's night safari right lit up my day.
Who knew riding ontop of a speeding trolley heading to a concrete wall could be so fun
The only reason why I'm here right now is because Darren Tay owns.
Period

I hope we get night safari rides in band camp
At night
Pitch black
Speeding

The joy.

I hate Valentine's Day

Puppet Master

Moving unwillingly

Bent over in odd shapes

Prancing around like fools

Controlled by him and him alone

No divine force
No unholy acts

Strings shine in the bright stage lights

Up, down, up, down

His arms move

In odd fashions, like conducting an orchestra

They get moved in his will
They stop at his will

No one has the right to refuse

No one has the right to comply

They wish his death,
They wish it hard

But all of them know inside,
That they cannot live without him

Motion comes from motion,
Forces act and react with other forces

But for them, their lives are predestined by that man
Their acts are irreversible, their minds incapable of any resistance
Soulless, yet living things

Under a soulful, yet dead master

Irony clashes with compassion
Compassion fails to exist in their world anyway

But still

They wish to live
They wish to be like him
They wish to be different from him

But at the end of the day
The strings fall
And the puppets are left dangling
Cold and wooden
Silent, yet they scream in their minds

That little old man slowly kisses each of the wooden things
And keeps them slowly in small, cozy boxes
He then walks away from the theater
Smiling, yet troubled with deep thought

Thus lives the life of a Puppet Master

Anger Management?

One more step

And I swear I'd break out

The candies

And give your face

A big kiss

Which will probably damage your

Broken heart so badly

That the

Joy

Will start gushing out

And I'll

Hug

Your

Happy

Donkey

Home to where

The happiness is

I learnt about selective censorship today by masking words

I learn something -incredibly- -useful- everyday

Happy things in life

Make the goddamn Nazis sad

As Such

VALEN-FING-TINES DAY


....In 6 days


This post served no purpose at all

Damn, I'm bored

Goodbye

I saw her blood on my hands.
Red, like rubies... Pure, clean...

Her dead figure lies on the floor, 3 meters away from me
Slumped, oddly bent.
Her face frozen in terror
Her eyes, once brimming with fear, lie cold in her sockets

Her hair, soft and golden, stained with splashes of blood
Her tears, warm and sweet, still drop slowly from her now-dead face

Her hands clutch the small charm I gave her

I slowly walk towards her body
She should have known
She could have known

What was once happy memories come flooding into my mind
Running through the fields
Playing in the grass
Flying small kites
Feeding stray animals

I slowly lift her lifeless body
The bloody mess clings onto her body
Dripping off slowly
Little thick crystals of life death brings

I simply close her eyelids with my hands
And give her one last touch before I leave

Her face feels so cold
So, so cold

I can't think straight anymore

After all, they struck so fast

Her wound seemed to stop bleeding,
Yet the blood kept dripping from the side of her chest

Fatality

I still remember her smile
I still remember our promise

It was simple
To achieve our dreams
To set a bright future for ourselves
Work hard, earn money
Find ourselves both good spouses

After all, best friends stick forever, right?

My mind is in a daze

Something warm pools in my shoulder and head

Oh right, I've been shot too

I smile to myself

I fall to the floor, my vision getting blurred

Something red covers my left eye

I can't think anymore

There is no pain
No hurt

Memories of my life surprisingly leave from me

I cannot recall anything at all

I see her body right next to mine
I see the trail of my blood right next to hers

I smile once again

I feel cold
Cold, so cold

Yet I feel happy

Slowly, I fall asleep

Slowly, my eyes begin to close themselves

Cold, so cold
Sleepy, so sleepy

It's funny how it ends this way

I smile once again, and I am unable to process why

Why it feels so warm suddenly
Why my dreams visit me suddenly

Laying down there

Warm, so warm

It feels soothing

So soothing

Slowly I see her hand stretched out towards me
I reached out

And took it

Hello, I said

Goodbye

Rough Day

Fell asleep approximately 22 times

Got scolded approximately 14 times for that

Got bored easier than usual, didn't wanna bother the scholars for their dictionaries to play Super Mario...

Got even more bored

... and hungry...

Went home, felt angsty on the bus. Tried to control violence towards the noise. Luckily the main causes went off the bus after Dover.

Now now, violence is bad

Went home, saw two people trying to display their love on the bus

"Public Display of Affection" was it?

Well they looked like complete eff-tards... Purposely moving right next to Gabriel and me (we were at the back seats) and started snuggling

Basically I laughed like a retard

Got dirty looks

Oh well,

Life goes on

Bored to death now by work

Tests tomorrow

...

I need my life back